September 1st.
The begining of fall, my birthday month and the beginning of my second year living in Europe. It's been quite awhile since I written anything. This year has been more challenging then I could have ever imagined. Coming here last year, I thought that when my instagram feed looked like the dreams that I had since I was a kid, then I'd be happy. Well my feed does! Seven countries visited this past year, countless experiences and memories, but this year turned out to be harder than anything I've ever experienced. It's been full of frustration, broken friendships, and an indescribable loneliness. The depression I've always had was my only constant companion. It sat on my shoulder like a demon, whispering in my ear all the things that kept me up at night or caused me to stumble. I'd be lying if I said that today, the 1st of September, that it's all behind me, but today is as good of day as any to start moving forward again. Over the past two months, I've been able to lose weight, about 13 pounds, and that's gone a long way to boost my self esteem. Last week I finally learned what company command I would take, giving me an idea of what the next few years look like. And I've planned a trip to hike the West Highland Way for my birthday. I've talked about this for a year and now I'm going to finally do it, by myself. I've upset some people by insisting that I do this alone. But I know it's important, I need the confidence in myself again. So Prost! To a new start, a new focus and giving myself the confidence to tell that demon to pound sand.
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